Saturday, May 30, 2009

14:11.

Fire, fall down.

Come as a rushing wind, searing hearts and minds, freeing spirits and identity, irrevocably changing lives.

Oh, Lord, we cry, Fire fall down.

Oh Lord, we cry, Fire fall down.

Break Out will be a rush of wind, a burning coal, an instrument for Your Hands to move. Dearest Spirit, we cry fire fall down.
0055.

Dear, dear Lord, I need You more each day now so much more than I did.

So much more Lord.

I don't want to do things, any thing, on my own.

I need You in all things, every area, every matter.

You are my wisdom. You are my joy. You are my pride. You are my hope, my delight, my king and prince, my every thing.

Dearest Lord, I need thee every hour.

So much more than before.

Pour Yourself out on me, my Lord. Pour out the grace, the anointing, the wisdom, the love, Your heart, divine focus, You.

Dearest, dearest Lord, I love You. I love You. I love You.

Friday, May 15, 2009

1150.

There are times when I still stop and suddenly be still, and wonder how I got here.

"Here" means many things - Being out of my country, being out of the journalism career my teenage self was so set upon and now being out of the corporate world and going into church full-time.

"Here" also means the unstoppable turn of time 'n tide bringing me to 28 years old in 2 months time. It also means being happily married with a most lovely lad. It also means having our own cosy apartment and a car, all these very adult-like accessories if one could call it that.

I wonder at how it has been 17 years, Dad, since I said my life is a blank cheque for you.

12 years since I came back to you. 10 years since I sung nothing compares to the promise I have in you and meant it with all I am and all I know.

Dearest God, I mean it still now, as You know.

It's May 15 2009. The year has galloped along at a pretty trot. And there are times when I look at the to-be-done list and allow all that I do not know how to do disturb the peace You have given me. But nothing compares, nothing, nothing, nothing compares to this great adventure You have masterminded and are on together with me, with us.

Just as I am. Walking along with my Jesus.

I love You, Lord.

Amen.