Last night, Ps Danny Gug was in church and he preached a msg that got me tearing up in so many places. It's incredible how God uses you when you are open about your brokenness. We don't have it together, I don't have it all together, but when I'm not trying to be someone else 'cause of that, well, God can employ me in this Kingdom.

At one point, he talked about there being a diff bwt "sent" and "went" as he shared how he was called into ministry. I teared up at the encouragement of his story and just the warmness of how I was not alone, I suppose.

There was a description that really got to me - how "friends and family just didn't have the time to contact" them after they move and "so there were times when it was very lonely".

There was no bitterness in the comment, just candor. No anger or malice or wrong motivation.

Nor is there in my identifying with the reality of that observation.

But see, I've positioned myself where only God can catch me, where only He can satisfy, where only He makes the most sense, where only He is my true reward and prize and all else are but side players in this race I run.

I've been sent. And there's no way to live except that of the sold out, God-fearing, obeying, living warrior daughter.

And in this new season where You remain, ever more keenly, my chief teacher, dearest Lord, I choose to pursue You in a new way and ask for the everything to do so.

Jesus, I'm Yours. No one's else, no object or man or purpose else will I serve. Just You. Just You.