21:56.

Sometimes, you work your butt off at some thing and it doesn't come out quite the way it should. So you sigh, make a mental note to be wary and to send a message to some people tomorrow, and move on.

In my year as a working adult, I have learnt to do that.

The first post of a new year should be more than this, eh?

Yeah, but I am not done yet with my personal reflections upon time past and aspirations for time to come.

I resort again, thus, to borrowed verses and songs. (And thanks to DW for going through the trouble to send me the studio version of this song)

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Worlds Apart - Jars of Clay
I am the only one to blame for this
Somehow it all adds up the same

Soaring on the wings of selfish pride
I flew too high and like Icarus I collide
With a world I try so hard to leave behind

To rid myself of all but love
to give and die

To turn away and not become
Another nail to pierce the skin of one who loves
more deeply than the oceans,
more abundant than the tear
Of a world embracing every heartache

Can I be the one to sacrifice
Or grip the spear and watch the blood and water flow

To love you - take my world apart
To need you - I am on my knees
To love you - take my world apart
To need you - broken on my knees

All said and done I stand alone
Amongst remains of a life I should not own
It takes all I am to believe
In the mercy that covers me

Did you really have to die for me?
All I am for all you are
Because what I need and what I believe are worlds apart

I look beyond the empty cross
forgetting what my life has cost
and wipe away the crimson stains
and dull the nails that still remain

More and more I need you now,
I owe you more each passing hour
the battle between grace and pride
I gave up not so long ago

So steal my heart and take the pain
and wash the feet and cleanse my pride
take the selfish, take the weak,
and all the things I cannot hide
take the beauty, take my tears
the sin-soaked heart and make it yours
take my world all apart
take it now, take it now
and serve the ones that I despise
speak the words I can't deny
watch the world I used to love
fall to dust and thrown away
I look beyond the empty cross
forgetting what my life has cost
so wipe away the crimson stains
and dull the nails that still remain
so steal my heart and take the pain
take the selfish, take the weak
and all the things I cannot hide
take the beauty, take my tears
take my world apart, take my world apart
I pray, I pray, I pray
take my world apart

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They say loving someone means losing yourself. 2003, I somehow lost myself and yet in the process, felt that I am coming to know who I am meant to be more. For now, we see from behind a veil but one day, we will see everything in Light.

And what a day that will be.

Lord Jesus, I'm yours.